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Journal Entry: Tue Jun 28, 2011, 9:27 AM


Hello everyone,

I have stayed silent for a long time. Pretty much the entire last year. I have been here admiring art as always but I am not finding the time to create even the tiniest thing. This is hardly news. I have been writing about my "busy" (read: unable to handle stress suffering-) life before. I thought that I would have things sorted out by now. If there is will there is a way. Well, the sad thing is that things have taken a turn for the worse. I feel that what I need the most is to put everything on hold and be able to forget about everything.

I have accepted requests and made promises. When I pick up my pencil again it is my first priority to finish these.

Sincerely,

Spelarminlind

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: My New iPod Shuffle IV Gen
  • Reading: Iris - En sorgesĺng
  • Watching: Melodifestivalen
  • Playing: Pokémon Platinum
  • Eating: Chocolate cookies
  • Drinking: Coffee
EDIT 2: Whoa!? Who would have thought? :wow: All spaces filled. Thank you so much everyone who asked for sketches and I hope that I will not keep you waiting for too long.

EDIT 1: I warned before that I would probably end up taking my time with these sketches but right now I am so swamped with schoolwork that I feel like crying :tears: Even more than I expected. Everyone has already been really kind and said that it is all right to wait but I would still like to apologize.

The other day I requested a sketch from :iconlaysl: and the thing with that was that it was part of something that, I guess, can be described as a request chain - so I will try to fulfill my part of the deal (offering request for wanting a request) and you can read the rules at the end of this journal entry.
Last time I wrote that there is a lot going on in my life right now (new university and the likes) and I was a bit hesitant to offer 10 requests because I do not want to make promises I cannot keep. I will probably end up putting it off over and over. Add that, well, who would want one? It would solve the first problem but I think I would feel worse. Still, a messy sketch... from me? A few rough lines (no shading for a sketch). Most likely I will upload these sketches to scraps too. I really cannot find a single reason for anyone to ask for one...
But here I am so I better get this over with:

RULES:
- The first 10 people who comment on this journal entry will receive a FREE SKETCH!
- Normally for the rules, you must offer 10 free sketches in your own journal, but I don't mind if you choose not to.
- If necessary (for example, if the character is an OC), include a reference.
- Also list whether you want me to stick to the original style. If you say nothing I'll automatically assume that you don't mind characters turning out totally different.
- So, uh, leave a comment? :)

*crosses fingers*

1. :iconlaysl: - Terra Branford and Shadow (+ Interceptor) - [link]
2. :icontsaaif: - Link and Zelda - [link]
3. :iconlady-zelda-of-hyrule: - Maria (OC) - [link]
4. :iconcrazyfreak: - Link and Zelda (Zeldanime)
5. :iconookamicat: - Mark (OC) - [link]
6. :iconbalba-bunny: - Inaba - [link]
7. :iconvanevil: - Una (OC) - [link]
8. :iconawildchelseaappeared: - Atenís (OC)
9. :iconwebmegami: - Araon (OC) - [link]
10.:iconvictortky: - Divine and Xeria (OC's)
  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: My New iPod Shuffle IV Gen
  • Reading: Iris - En sorgesång
  • Watching: Melodifestivalen
  • Playing: Pokémon Platinum
  • Eating: Chocolate cookies
  • Drinking: Coffee

Tagged Again

Journal Entry: Mon Jan 3, 2011, 8:27 AM


Hello everyone

I wish you a happy new year! I thought that I better take the opportunity to write one last journal before my Premium membership runs out and I will no longer have this pretty journal skin (and I like it so much too! But I guess that I do not take enough advantage of the premium features to start asking for donations).

I was unexpectedly accepted to my first choice education and university. There was a period of time when I neglected my studies, and questioned my reasons for learning the content of texts I felt nothing for. Naturally it affected my grades and because of this I was afraid that I had lost all hope of ever taking up my dream profession.
If I know myself right I will still end up doodling or drawing even when I won't not have the time for it. Keeping in mind how little I produce now that I do have plenty of free time on my hands I still guess that I will not be able to submit a whole lot of art from now on (I doubt I will be able to enter the Nintyfans contest as I had planned). Right now I am filling out my free time with movies, video games (those can really steal away the hours), writing, drawing, reading (in an Agatha Christie craze right now) etc. Well, so long and goodbye to that. Those are hours I need to spend wiser from now on. There was a while ago I tried to study seriously so I need to give myself a good mental slap and put in some effort.

Hrm, that aside, I was tagged by :iconlaysl: Or not really... She noticed that I had already been tagged and written 10 things about myself. Maybe I am just so self-centered that I have to do it again nonetheless? Well, here are 10 new unimportant/weird facts about me:

1. I say "woooosh!" a lot. If someone is telling an exciting part of a story, if something like a close-call happens... well, it is sad but true. I automatically let out a swooshing sound. It reminds me of Gumshoe and his "whoooooop!" (although both sound and situation ought to be very different).

2. I have a secret fanfiction account where I purposefully write unoriginal cruddy stories that I am too embarrassed to submit to my regular account (not that my other stories are anything to brag about... but imagine ten times worse than that).

3. I'm a lousy driver.

4. I only started to like Kikyo (from Inuyasha) and see things from her perspective after I found out that Noriko Hidaka was her voice actor. Now she is one of my favorite characters.

5. If I had a super power I would want telekinesis

6. I think that Chip & Dale: Rescue Rangers is an awesome show and the intro is great.

7. I love the music of the '80s (even though I was born a decade later)

8. Once I took a "which Disney heroine are you?" quiz and ended up with Jane Porter... which is surprisingly well fitting. A clumsy "proper behavior" girl with a sketchpad always close at hand and with obscure interests that she plunge headfirst into. The one difference I could find between us would be that I am too shy to ever try a word of monkey talk... and our taste in men differs too now that I think about it...

9. My guilty pleasure is shōjo manga. I mock the many clichés, Mary-Sues, unoriginal character designs, boring characters and so on. Yet I still come back for more. I guess the romantic in me needs its share of daily romance.

10. Sometimes I have trouble looking at myself in the mirror.

  • Mood: Seasonal
  • Listening to: Disney Songs
  • Reading: Agatha Christie
  • Watching: Miss Marple
  • Playing: Ace Attorney
  • Eating: Biscuits
  • Drinking: Julmust

Tagged

Journal Entry: Mon Oct 25, 2010, 10:38 AM


I was tagged by :iconcookiekittysan: and I will get to that soon. First I have to praise this beautiful journal skin. I had planned to make an ugly one myself, but I can feel that my premium membership is already slipping away from me. It is fortunate that there are kind souls out there making wonderful skins like this one for us mediocre people to use (I just hope I managed to credit properly).

Don't mind that my current mood is "anguish" right now. I have a lot on my mind, that is all. It does not seem fair that I should dump all of my troubles here, as an incoherent mess that will undoubtedly bore anyone to tears or at least make one roll its eyes.

And, please, forgive me for not tagging anyone (thus breaking the rules). I would be happy to tag anyone who wants to do this. If you are the kind who feels that it might be a tad vain to outright say that you want to write ten things about yourself, feel free to give me a discreet :poke: and I will be there :ninja:

Now, onto that tag (if only I had not been distracted I might have avoided it... but, alas...)


Tag Rules

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
3. Choose 10 friends and put their icon on same page.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

10 Things About Me

1. Zelda/Marth is one of my favorite pairings, but the truth is that I started pairing them with each other out of spite (although, admittedly, there is more to the story). It has always rubbed me the wrong way how Link is portrayed as walking talking perfection (there is a reason why authors create protagonists with flaws) and it downright bothers me that people love pairing him off with everything that moves and its grandmother. He is so perfect that people living in monogamous societies think that it is okay – even a good thing – for him to have a harem? A relationship should require two people but somehow it always turns out to be all about Link. No, turn the tables on him and let him have a taste of his own medicine.

2. Whenever I am on vacation I buy a souvenir cup from the place I am visiting. I have a pretty nice collection building up.

3. A secret: My feet angle themselves a bit outward so I have made it a habit to twist them inward and to put one foot directly in front of the other when I walk. It looks a lot more ladylike.

4. I do not use make-up or give it a lot of thought what I wear. I think that it is more important that I feel comfortable with how I look and accept myself. That being said, I put a lot of value in etiquette and that will never allow me to become so comfortable with myself that I can accept looking like a slob. So, let's say I settle with the Middle Way. I tend to do that.  

5. My greatest fear is being a bother to people. Making no difference I can accept but never being a burden.

6. I love curling up with a warm blanket and a cup of steaming Lady Grey tea in front of the TV. What I watch can range from a romantic comedy to a more philosophical tragedy.

7. I love walking in the rain, listening to music, because the streets are empty and that allows me to lose myself in my musings without any interruption. The world seems bluer too.

8. I obsess over the color blue and I identify myself with it. Blue dominates my closet and my room is a nice blend of shades and tones of blue, some white and a little bit of birch wood (of course I bring in paintings and decorations with brighter colors to give the room a lift). I feel very harmonious surrounded by my favorite color.

9. Something I am very unhappy about is that I can neither sing nor dance that well.

10. My username is a sentence (without the spaces) in Swedish that means: "Does my linden tree play?" It a quotation from an old folktale about a young girl who got her happy ending only to have it taken away from her. The young queen was transformed into a duck and replaced by her evil stepsister. One night the duck came swimming in the moat and said: "Does my linden tree play? Does my nightingale sing? Does my son cry in his crib? Is my husband ever smiling? Twice again I will come and then never again."
The same quotation was used by the Swedish writer of children's books Astrid Lindgren as a title for one of her short stories. It was about a poor orphan girl named Malin who heard those same words and: "she had not known before that words could be beautiful, but now she did."
I can relate to that one moment when one finally "gets" poetry. That words are more than just words and that sound is equally important to writing as it is to speech. It perfectly captures what makes me interested in books, music, video games, movies, anime, manga, art, poetry etc. Images, words, sounds are tools for expressing oneself and they can be combined, structured and used in a hundred different ways for humans to reach out to each other. When words fail... well, there are so many more ways to use words. For someone like me, who has never been a skilled conversationalist, I would have felt like an isolated island had it not been for all of these other wonderful means to express myself – and it is also why I think that it is important to listen and to be open for new impressions. It opens up new dimensions. When words are only words and that's that we are frogs in a well.


  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: Under Ytan - Uno Svenningsson
  • Reading: Fairy Tales
  • Watching: The News
  • Playing: Professor Layton
  • Drinking: Lady Grey Tea
  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: Stand Out (A Goofy Movie)
  • Reading: Special Topics in Calamity Physics - Marisha Pessl
  • Watching: Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood
  • Playing: Fire Emblem - Sacred Stones
  • Eating: Pasta with Crayfish
  • Drinking: Sparkling Water
Okay, so after being a member at deviantart for... (checks profile) three weeks I get around to writing my first journal. I do not consider that a very long delay as I often put things off for months (glares at piles of unfinished drawings reaching for the ceiling). I better get myself a nice ID picture or something. I anticipate it to take less than an hour to sketch and more than a year to color and post.

I love looking around at this site and I have been wanting to become a member for so long. I will see if I can find something nice to talk about in this journal. Something ought to show up, and I like writing about nothing in particular (notices people quickly unchecking the "journal" button for Spelarminlind).

I will mostly upload sketches to my scrapbook as I draw a lot but am pretty slow with coloring. I know that I am not that good but if anyone ever finds something they would like to color it would only help me out. Just remember to credit and to tell me because I would very much like to see.

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